I've been having trouble sleeping recently. A few weeks ago it was because I was up all night coughing, but I'm over that. Now Robb is sick, which means he snores. But even THAT isn't really what is keeping me awake. I found myself rolling over occasionally last night to make sure he was still breathing when he stopped. And even THAT isn't totally it.
My brain will not shut up recently! And it's not even like anything is going on in my life that would warrant that kind of thing. Everything is routine. And when I do fall asleep? A few nights ago it was a gorgeously furnished house belonging to a world-saving doctor where a nurse asked me if I wanted to read to a patient and it rocked my consciousness for some reason. I've been thinking about that dream for days. Last night it was an adventure involving chopping down a forest to make room for...something I don't recall, having a customer from the bank as an assistant, and flying a friend home and back from his tennis academy in his private helicopter. Oh, and then crashing a car that couldn't stop or turn before giving up and riding to my old home (which I dream about all the time) on a bike with a piece of hard candy in my mouth.
And it's all so vivid and strange and out of control. Sometimes it's so vivid it wakes me up.
What I would give for a night of solid sleep...
You can share bootstraps, you know.
1 day ago