I am not upset that you called my boyfriend to offer him a job. Seeing as how he worked there faithfully for years before finding a real job, I can see how the prospect of having him back might have been alluring. What I am upset about is how, when he asked you not to call him because he wasn't serious about applying and told you to call me first, since I needed the job and would be better for it, you called him without calling me.
I realize it's been over six months since we applied, since you called him, but obviously I'm not over it. I feel rejected by the one thing I'd really love to do right now. Why did you not even think I was worth a call? What was wrong with my application? With me?
Last night I had trouble falling asleep, lying awake thinking about this. It's the first time in a little while it's crossed my mind. And I know there is nothing that can be done, really. I shouldn't feel slighted, I know. But I do.
At first I thought, "Oh, maybe we applied too late." The woman at the desk said it was really close to when they were going to hire someone. And for a while they didn't call either of us. And then Robb's phone rang.
I wonder where we went wrong.
This is raw.
21 hours ago