I miss blogging. I remember when every day was an adventure, and just throwing some photos and text together was all I looked forward to. I couldn't wait to tell you all about my day, something I bought, or what some jerk said to me in passing that really stuck with me.
And then I stopped. I felt like I couldn't be honest here anymore. Things that I was saying were being misinterpreted in my personal life, and I was finding myself rethinking any story or image that was going up here. Everything had to go through a filter of, "What am I going to have to say to make this one blow over?" Not to mention, sometimes I had things up here that I had no idea could ever be a problem for anyone, and then I was blindsided with cold shoulders and attitude for something being read into a post that wasn't even there in the first place.
So I quit. It was easier than putting up with the fallout. And it wasn't really a conscious decision, honestly. I just lost my passion for putting myself out there and not getting anything good in return. For a few years I found a home on Tumblr at GamesWithBoys, but that's gone now, too. Another case of not being able to post honestly anymore for fear of being policed. So...I quit that.
I've been a Shyguy lately about everything that's going on in my life (not that there is much to talk about, which is another reason I stopped...after college there wasn't much excitement), and I'm going to be trying to change that.
I'm not sure what form this blog will take, or if it will take form at all, but I'm looking to start somewhere. I need this kind of outlet in my life, for whatever reason.
Thus far I've graduated college with an English degree (read: I work in a bank), come out to friends and family (read: I'm gay), accompanied my boyfriend of seven years to all kinds of sweet events (read: I'm taken), and managed not to make too many enemies in the whole process. Life is...