Thursday, April 8, 2010

Vacation From My Life...

Does anyone know of a switch that exists that will let me just wipe my thoughts clean and start again? I'm so done having every conversation and every thought revolve around job hunting, applying, and not hearing anything back...seriously. I just want a vacation from my life.

Every day I get online and look for jobs. Every time I leave the house I look for help wanted signs. Every conversation I have ends with, "and if you know of anybody who is hiring, let me know."

Every day when Robb comes home we talk about jobs, and then later in the evening he gets online and starts telling me what he's finding, which I've already seen that day, and which I don't want to talk about anymore.

At Easter his dad found out that I'm unemployed, and now he keeps calling and suggesting things we could try, things I've already tried, or things I would never be qualified for.

I just want to cry...I apply for at least one job every day. I've heard back from one place. I had two interviews with them. I haven't heard back. I am calling them today.

And then, when I AM offered a job, it's on the wings of an offer for sex.

But really, it's just the constant grinding of the talk about jobs, the looking for jobs, the applying for jobs, the feeling unqualified for jobs, the arguing about jobs, the wanting of jobs...

Anyone want to switch lives for a few days?



Bryan Ochalla said...

Ugh. Sorry Justin.

Maybe you should take a vacation from it ... of sorts. For ex: maybe you should tell Robb and others in your life that you're spending loads of time looking for a job, and while you appreciate their concern and their help, etc., you don't want to talk about it for a while. Or you only want to talk about it when you bring it up.

I was in a somewhat similar situation last year when I was down on my job. It seemed like every word that came out of my mouth had to do with my job -- and every conversation I had with my husband and with my parents had to do with my job. So, at one point I told everyone, "I don't want to talk about it for a while." And I didn't. And it helped me turn things around in my head.

I can't promise it will work for you, but it couldn't hurt to try.

Anyway, sorry again. As always, my fingers and toes and unmentionables are crossed for you.

Viewtiful_Justin said...

True true. Thanks for the advice! And for crossing your unmentionables...I hope that doesn't hurt to uncross as badly as I think it might...